to hold on to

Some cryptic and gentle thoughts should not be written. That nonsensical connection I feel with you, the feeling we are, in that moment, sharing the same thought – of each other. I understand something that I did not understand those years back. Instead of sharing, I will keep your secret; I will kiss this precious…

Responsibility

A hat caught in the crowd, A whisper then a volume then a shriek. She She screamed She screamed and she cried. All the women starred; Some men watched; Some men walked away; Some men tried to cover her mouth with a kerchief. Some men listened. All women listened, anticipated. Women waited for the she…

Dec 13, 2018 ; Recovery

It finally happened today. Stepping off the bus, I take a look at the parking lot outside the cafe I showed you by my house. It’s a habit. I used to check for your ex’s car and now I check for yours. And there it was. Blacked out everything. The sleek compact car narrowing at…

Pain

I’m waiting on the ash at the tip of the cigarette To flake away.   I was so many things. I was a person.   “I’m sorry.” “That wasn’t okay.” “I overreacted.” “No… that wasn’t normal.” “I know. Why are you still with me?”   I asked for your help When my heart fluttered to…

Run

I thought you’d want to read my poetry To learn about me: My superficial thoughts and desires. Yet all you had to learn from me Was from that desire alone. That I wanted you to know me. I wanted you to love me. I wanted you to so desperately pick up my broken pieces And…

i am woman

Yes, I am a woman, Which inherently means I overreact. To undone dishes, Smelly sheets, And cold food.   Yet, As your woman, I should have overreacted To the hair band in your new car That did not belong to me.

The Caffeinated Queen

She shook hands with the men in ties And her fingers shook over the corners of her papers. Her hair was mostly done Just as her trousers mostly fit. She lived in the county but spent her days clacking on the cement Of the city’s dance floor. The lights, the shopping, the glamour: All something…

Names and Nature (I did not return the love you gave me)

I did not return the love you gave to me. When the leaves fell from the trees I tried to tape them back onto the branches. I stumbled anxiously into the cafe Where they now know my name And I’d rest easy on my lunch break away from everyone. I hid for a moment To…

Sand and Synthetic Cotton Fields

I heard your voice in the thunder. I lay on my bones underneath the faraway suns and moons as they watched from above. I heard the leaves bid me to sleep; I heard the waves drown out your screams. And though I stayed awake the night, I felt a Woman hold me until morning, Heard…

Natural Disasters

The cobwebs are swallowing me whole today. The fitted sheets with grey textile Come loose on the bed and I’m knotted in them in the morning. My foot is stuck in the polyester thread. It is the morning And the white light pounds through the window And demands to be seen. It looks beautiful And…