Lists

I speak in lists,

for everything about me is to do

with me improving.

I don’t find myself to be very

worthy of affection,

but I can’t tell people that.

There’s a list for things like that,

for words that can’t be spoken.

It’s right there with “I still miss you”

and “I never stopped loving you”.

That list is on a list of things that

hurt that most, that pokes

daggers into healing places.

I speak in lists because

there are rules about situations

like you and I.

There are things to say, things to avoid,

ways to act, and ways to feel.

I speak in lists because I

don’t know any other way to behave.

There are things to do,

and there are lists for that.

I speak in lists

because I still want you,

but we are an impossible situation,

put on the list of ‘have-nots’.

And yet, if I could make a new list,

it would dare to do the impossible,

it would dare to speak in words,

not lists.

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